My Work Reality – Constant High Stress
I work shifts in a large ICU.
23 beds. Over 1,000 patients per year. Interdisciplinary. Major trauma center. Emergency calls. Bariatric surgery.
Something's always beeping.
The stress is constant. Decisions are often life-critical. There's rarely any quiet.
At Home: A Second High-Stress System
Home looks different – but it's no less demanding.
It's chaotic. Someone's always crying or screaming. Quiet time is severely limited.
Constant stress.
A young child like Sam – or Johanna too – can't understand that Dad just came from a night shift or is emotionally depleted.
And honestly: At some point, I couldn't take it anymore either.
The Breaking Point
We changed things because it became unbearable.
And I mean that literally.
I wanted to move out multiple times. Just get away. Not because I don't love my family, but because I had no space left to even function.
Decisive Actions
We made decisions that weren't comfortable, but were necessary.
I stepped down from my leadership position. Nearly 100 staff members can create quite a bit of stress – on top of everything else.
My wife returned to parental leave and currently only works Fridays.
I scheduled a Friday shift that allows me to:
- take the kids to daycare and school
- pick Sam up again
Structure.
On other days, my wife handles the routines.
Transitions for Adults Too
When I come home from a shift, I always have about 30 minutes for myself before entering the daily chaos.
No conversations. No decisions. Decompressing.
Only after that am I approachable again.
This wasn't optional – it was essential.
Planning Creates Security
For Sam, we have a daily plan that my wife creates with him on Sunday evenings for the coming week.
It clearly shows: When am I there? When not?
This transparency gives Sam security. And gives us peace.
An Honest Assessment
I have to be honest: My profession isn't optimally suited for a young family with a special needs child.
That doesn't mean it's impossible.
But it means:
- conscious priorities
- hard decisions
- and accepting limitations
What the Science Says
Shift work, especially in healthcare, is associated with increased risk for:
- chronic exhaustion
- emotional dysregulation
- sleep disorders
- family strain
Studies show that parents of children with autism spectrum disorders are additionally exposed to significantly higher psychological and organizational stress.
Particularly problematic is the combination of:
- unpredictable work hours
- lack of recovery periods
- high emotional demands
Research findings also show that clear structures, predictable routines, and deliberately scheduled transition times can significantly improve family stability.
Sources (Selection):
Costa (2003): Shift Work and Health
Åkerstedt (2005)
Karst & Van Hecke (2012)
DSM-5-TR: Autism Spectrum Disorder
What We've Learned
Shift work with a special needs child is possible – but not without compromises.
Structure helps not only the child, but also the adults.
And sometimes the most important decision is letting go of something to gain something else.